The Weight of it

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I want to tell you that I love you like the sun, and the stars

    That the very thought is like a black hole in my chest, 

     Threatening to consume me, and you, and everything

    Heavier than the earth itself

And yet it is light

  It is warmth and heat, 

    Exploding out through all of the gaps in me

   I am all fission, and gathering storms, 

And in the middle is love, heavy, so heavy I cannot hope to lift it


Perhaps one day my skin will burst with the light of it

  All of my atoms will give way with one final sigh

And I will no longer have to carry you, carry me

   Love will have won, and I shall be no more


I love you like water

  Like the rapids approaching a great waterfall

   The current is so fast, I could never hope to swim

  I am adrift, pulled down, pummeled by it

I am a small plastic cup held under, hoping to show you

   All the water that the river has ever contained,

 In my tiny child’s sized grasp


I worry that you will get caught in the gravity of me

  That you will get to close,


  And that in the end

     You will not be able to save yourself from my collapse


It is too late for so many

  I feel the weight of them

    In my heart 

      In my arms


I cannot hold on to so much love, so much grief

   It will break me. 

     More importantly, I fear

it will break you

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